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I am to be published, academically speaking that is. My first assignment made my lecturer so happy that she has put me in touch with someone to get it published in one of the university journals with a possible view to contact SEN magazines in the future. This is very exciting, although now I'm terrified that I'm not going to meet the standards needed for all the rest of my assignments, peaking too early and such-like.

I think it is this that is making it so difficult for me to get started on my next assignment, which is ridiculous because the assignment is about autism so I should be able to write about it for days. Just whenever I pick up a pen I seem to lose everything from my mind and go brain-dead.

On a different subject, the communication panel to decide the placements of autistic children within the borough I work has been concluded, which means that from next half-term onwards the RP staff will meet the two children who will be joining us in September. This reminder of the fact that changes will inevitably be made, as they are every year, has bothered me more this year than last - because now I have seen how magnificently the staff have fucked up everything Mon and Shah worked on last year. Which means I will have to watch the same thing happen with Jab and Coelho next year, and it is a painful realisation to undergo.

Maybe I should find someway to write an essay about that and how messed up the education system is for students within these resource provisions - at least then I'd have plenty to rant about.

Date: 2016-02-18 04:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
That's brilliant - the first half of your post, I mean! Congratulations :)

Date: 2016-02-18 04:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you, I was very happy. I still am very happy, but with a fair dose of anxiety.

Date: 2016-02-18 08:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Aaaaah, congratulations! That's brilliant!

I am sorry it is also anxiety-making though. I will say I think you write very eloquently and clearly about autism so, you should totally write the essay because I'm sure it will be interesting.

Sometimes when I end up in that performance anxiety space I have to put words on the page while muttering 'doesn't matter if it's shit, NO ONE HAS TO SEE IT AT THIS POINT' and... sometimes that helps ^^ I hope you manage to get through the brain-dead-ness!

Date: 2016-02-18 10:28 pm (UTC)
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That is helpful advice, I took it and managed to get 500 words written. About half will probably be cut later but you're right, it made it easier to have something there. So thank you.

Date: 2016-02-19 07:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oh wow, I am really pleased it helped! Yay! And hurrah for 500 words!


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